Decisions, Decisions.. Ugh..

So, as I mentioned in my previous post, I met with the surgeon last Monday. (This is a very silly side note, but so far, I have met two residents that will be assisting with the surgery and they were both HOT! Damn! I am sure they will be very turned on not only by my no makeup/scary look, but by my huge swollen face, etc. haha I don't care in all honesty, but it does give me something nice to look at) :)
Anyway, back to the issue(s) at hand. So, I met with the surgeon and he introduced me to the hot resident Dr. Q. (Apparently Dr. Q has been doing/assisting with these surgeries for 6 years now and about to finish his residency and go into plastic surgery). Dr. W (my surgeon) wanted Dr. Q to look over everything (final measurements, xrays, molds, me) and make his own analysis before they consulted together. Dr. W (two weeks prior) had told me that I definitely need surgery on the bottom jaw and probably surgery on the top jaw as well. The surgery on the top jaw would have been minor movements (2 mms or so) and it would be to fix the midline (that was only 1 mm) fix the cant and bring it forward 2 mms. So anyway, Dr. Q did his analysis and said in his opinion he obviously agrees on the bottom jaw (bringing it forward and fixing the "crookedness"), but he thinks I need genioplasty as well. I completely agreed with this as my chin definitely sticks out way too much (and will only stick out more when they move the jaw forward). And finally, although he agreed that my top jaw is "off" in the ways Dr. W noted, he basically said he does not think all the added risks and work that would come with doing the top jaw would be worth it when it would be such little movements. He said I would not even notice the difference.
So, Dr. W and him consulted with each other and they both came back in to discuss everything with me. We all agreed right then that I would definitley have lower jaw surgery and the genioplasty. But, he said the upper jaw would be up to me. (And let me tell you, I cannot even make the simplest decisions, like what to have at a restaurant, so both my mom and I knew right then this would be trouble). He went on to say, that he could do the top jaw if I wanted b/c there were definite issues (although very minor) with it, but he restated that the top jaw is a lot riskier than the bottom and when talking about 2 mm it would not be a noticeable change. So they told me to sleep on it and let them know my decision.
Needless to say, I did not "sleep" on it, I tossed and turned the whole night. I must have changed my mind a million times, knowing that I am a perfectionist and knowing that I am going thru all this anyway, so why not just do it all and get it 100% right? But, then the more rational part of me would realize that it is not worth all that extra risk for a change that won't even be noticeable. AND Dr. W did tell me that functional-wise, it would be 100% even with just the lower jaw. And that is what was really important. So, after 3 long days and meeting with my ortho for over an hour (who basically told me the same thing - not worth it), I finally decided to just have the lower jaw and genioplasty. I am relieved in some ways that it will be a lot less surgery and hopefully a little better recovery, but I still keep second guessing my decision. :( I just hope I don't feel dissapointed afterwards that I didn't fix everything to perfection. But, I think overall I am happy and content with the decision.
And if all that weren't enough, when I spoke to my Dr. to let him know my decision, he asked me if I had decided about the surgery on my nose. I had kind of forgotten about this with everything else going on, but at our first meeting I talked to him about how I have a lot of trouble breathing thru my nose, especially on the left side. He told me he could do a procedure to widen my nostrils and to fix my deivated septum. He said he could do this at the same time as my jaw surgery in my case (Depending on the case, sometimes he will not do that at the same time). I would really like to get that done b/c I think a lot of my problems (mouth breathing, previous open bite, etc) are due to my nose and sinus problems. But, he told me there would be packing up my nose for 4 days (i.e. I wouldn't be able to breathe thru my nose AT ALL - Um, scary!) and that it is very uncomfortable when they are taken out. Well, I researched that a little and read some very scary stories, including some people saying that having the packing pulled out was the worst pain they have ever felt in their lives. So, that is where I am at right now. I still have to decide about the nose. If anyone has any experience with this, especially alongside having the jaw surgery, please let me know. Even though I think it would make a huge positive impact on my life (I barely even breathe thru my nose now), I think it might just be too much all at once.
Well, I can't beleive it's only a week and a day away. I feel like I am actually starting to get more calm about the whole thing. I am ready to just have it all over with at this point. Oh, and if anyone has any recommendations on food they ate or specific recipes, I would greatly appreciate it! (All I have is Ensure so far - bad, I know). I will be on here again soon, I am sure.